Friday, July 21, 2017

Buatlah mabuk seorang pengembara yang sepanjang hari mendongakkan kepala dengan angkuhnya tanpa ada yang mampu mencegahnya pergi sebelum terbit matahari esok, maka ia akan berkata sebelum tidurnya.. "Tahan aku."

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Today's Afternoon Rain

Today I met Iswa, a girl who loves rain and would prefer going out for 'ngojek payung' than staying home with her gamer-brother

"Air ujan kotor tapi aku suka!"
"Uangnya buat beli hape"
"Habis ini aku mau beli eskrim"

She once caught a cold because of her habbit of eating an ice cream after a rain stops rightaway, yet she was still going to do it anyway.

She worried nothing 
She kept dancing
and sang her own song 

I was thinking about how happy she is and wondering when was the last time I get wet because of rain, when suddenly a wind blew and magically FLIPPED my umbrella inside out -- it all happened in one second as if the universe wanted me to feel the rain too.

I laughed hard, so she did :) 

"Gapapa nanti Iswa minta ayah benerin payungnya!" 

Then we walked and talked all the way down to a nearby train station, umbrella-free! Yay!!!
Thank you Iswa for being a friend and turned the helpless 10 minutes worth something more

Sorry for being too sentimental 
but today's afternoon rain brought me one kind of warmth like no other day. Hehe <3

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Pindah deh :(

Dadah kamar putih kecilku ❤
Huh. Kamu tau banyak ya!

Dadah juga teman bawah kamar, 
sampai bertemu dalam obrolan larut malam di lain kesempatan! 

Monday, April 24, 2017

“If we’re wrapping ourselves up to conceal any vulnerability, whatever happens to us has to go through all those extra layers. Sometimes love doesn’t even reach where we truly live.” 
― Alexandra KatehakisMirror of Intimacy: Daily Reflections on Emotional and Erotic Intelligence

Yes, the creepiest yet most wonderful thing I know about human is that we all live beneath our countless layers, and the idea of a place where we could be completely naked is nothing but a beautiful lie wrapped in the name of hope.

Friday, March 24, 2017

What would you choose in another life
If you had warned from the very beginning
That your gift is also a curse?

Sunday, February 12, 2017

Currently living in the What It's Like to be an Ultimate Heartless yet Dramatically Emotional at the Very Same Time - chapter of life


Saturday, January 14, 2017

Drawing Literature Vol. 1: Norwegian Wood

Don't we always have those vivid imagery inside our head while reading beautiful words of scenery?

Monday, January 2, 2017

Imaginary Dialogue (4)

A: Brother, can you stop and save me from growing up?
B: Why all of a sudden?
A: You once sensed my growth from how life has given me lesson by the way I face anything so neat and quietly lately
B: Yes, in a good way. What is so bad about that?
A: The thing is, it actually makes me lose something I used to feel. 
B: Which is?
A: Excitement. The emotion coaster which extremely brings me up and down full of joy. Those wonder about any possibilities exist, which turn will I take next, while keep holding onto hope of the worth it will give me at the end. 
You know what brother, I just kind of missing it.
B: Then what makes you think by stop and saving you is the way of getting it back?
A: For the way it works like a double-edged sword 
B: Dear little sister, I knew it. 
It is indeed a part of the ride, in spite of two things you just don't realize: that at this very moment you haven't actually stepped out of the coaster, and you are actually able to manage how the track will roll. 
It is o.k. if you are now on the flat, toneless part of the track, but don't let the ride dims you. 
The line between what is ordinary and extraordinary is so thin that you are actually the one who creates it. 

Tentang 2016

Tentang kawan lama
Tentang pertambahan usia (tentunya)
Tentang timbang menimbang
Tentang puncak gunung pertama

Tentang mula
Tentang enam orang baru
Tentang gelas yang dikosongkan

Tentang kontribusi pertama
Menciptakan dan menikmati
Tentang kesempatan
yang hilang dan didapatkan
Tentang keterasingan

Tentang menembus batas
Tentang prioritas
Tentang runtuhnya pertahanan

Tentang usaha terbesar
yang terbayar
Diikuti istirahat
walau sejenak
Tentang menggantikan posisi

Tentang membayar ketertinggalan
Tentang kembali berpulang
Tentang membayar rindu
Tentang Ibu.

Tentang Kemang
Tentang pemahaman dan pencerahan
Tentang warna yang kembali
Tentang dua orang 
yang entah dimana kini

Tentang dididik mendidik
Tentang semangat baru
Tentang kertas kosong
yang tidak lagi mengintimidasi

Tentang jenuh 
dan jenuh
Tentang keinginan untuk lari jauh
Tentang berada di antara

Tentang kontribusi terakhir
Tentang pemulihan
Tentang membagi perhatian
antara diri sendiri dan perihal lain

Tentang kegagalan (besar)
Beri semua atau tidak samasekali
Tentang mengenal--
lebih banyak dan lebih dalam
Tentang perayaan pencapaian
Tentang mendapat dan memberi semangat
Tentang kehangatan,
dan rasa syukur

Tentang memegang kendali dan merangkul
Tentang penutupan
Tentang katarsis
Tentang kejujuran
Tentang (kesembuhan) Ibu.

Tentang harapan,
dan pendewasaan.

(Refleksi akhir tahun yang terinspirasi oleh @ancilladiska)