Monday, April 24, 2017

“If we’re wrapping ourselves up to conceal any vulnerability, whatever happens to us has to go through all those extra layers. Sometimes love doesn’t even reach where we truly live.” 
― Alexandra KatehakisMirror of Intimacy: Daily Reflections on Emotional and Erotic Intelligence

Yes, the creepiest yet most wonderful thing I know about human is that we all live beneath our countless layers, and the idea of a place where we could be completely naked is nothing but a beautiful lie wrapped in the name of hope.

Friday, March 24, 2017

What would you choose in another life
If you had warned from the very beginning
That your gift is also a curse?

Sunday, February 12, 2017

Currently living in the What It's Like to be an Ultimate Heartless yet Dramatically Emotional at the Very Same Time - chapter of life


Saturday, January 14, 2017

Drawing Literature Vol. 1: Norwegian Wood

Don't we always have those vivid imagery inside our head while reading beautiful words of scenery?

Monday, January 2, 2017

Imaginary Dialogue (4)

A: Brother, can you stop and save me from growing up?
B: Why all of a sudden?
A: You once sensed my growth from how life has given me lesson by the way I face anything so neat and quietly lately
B: Yes, in a good way. What is so bad about that?
A: The thing is, it actually makes me lose something I used to feel. 
B: Which is?
A: Excitement. The emotion coaster which extremely brings me up and down full of joy. Those wonder about any possibilities exist, which turn will I take next, while keep holding onto hope of the worth it will give me at the end. 
You know what brother, I just kind of missing it.
B: Then what makes you think by stop and saving you is the way of getting it back?
A: For the way it works like a double-edged sword 
B: Dear little sister, I knew it. 
It is indeed a part of the ride, in spite of two things you just don't realize: that at this very moment you haven't actually stepped out of the coaster, and you are actually able to manage how the track will roll. 
It is o.k. if you are now on the flat, toneless part of the track, but don't let the ride dims you. 
The line between what is ordinary and extraordinary is so thin that you are actually the one who creates it. 

Tentang 2016

Tentang kawan lama
Tentang pertambahan usia (tentunya)
Tentang timbang menimbang
Tentang puncak gunung pertama

Tentang mula
Tentang enam orang baru
Tentang gelas yang dikosongkan

Tentang kontribusi pertama
Menciptakan dan menikmati
Tentang kesempatan
yang hilang dan didapatkan
Tentang keterasingan

Tentang menembus batas
Tentang prioritas
Tentang runtuhnya pertahanan

Tentang usaha terbesar
yang terbayar
Diikuti istirahat
walau sejenak
Tentang menggantikan posisi

Tentang membayar ketertinggalan
Tentang kembali berpulang
Tentang membayar rindu
Tentang Ibu.

Tentang Kemang
Tentang pemahaman dan pencerahan
Tentang warna yang kembali
Tentang dua orang 
yang entah dimana kini

Tentang dididik mendidik
Tentang semangat baru
Tentang kertas kosong
yang tidak lagi mengintimidasi

Tentang jenuh 
dan jenuh
Tentang keinginan untuk lari jauh
Tentang berada di antara

Tentang kontribusi terakhir
Tentang pemulihan
Tentang membagi perhatian
antara diri sendiri dan perihal lain

Tentang kegagalan (besar)
Beri semua atau tidak samasekali
Tentang mengenal--
lebih banyak dan lebih dalam
Tentang perayaan pencapaian
Tentang mendapat dan memberi semangat
Tentang kehangatan,
dan rasa syukur

Tentang memegang kendali dan merangkul
Tentang penutupan
Tentang katarsis
Tentang kejujuran
Tentang (kesembuhan) Ibu.

Tentang harapan,
dan pendewasaan.

(Refleksi akhir tahun yang terinspirasi oleh @ancilladiska)

Monday, December 26, 2016

"Given you are at some point where you think you have reached the maximum.

Let me tell you dear, 
you have not. 

'It' should have always been unlimited
You just could not go beyond that if you don't have any access to
You are trapped without enough strength to break free, while honesty is the only key to unlock your cage
So how could you talk about its depth when you are still keeping it by yourself?

..It may only be the delusion of your sore."


Thanks for letting me paraphrase all what you've said, Sir!

Saturday, November 5, 2016


Aku kira tatanan dengan kebebasan sama pentingnya
Sama besar perannya untuk
menjaga yang hidup untuk tetap hidup 
Walau selain cara, satu yang berbeda diantaranya
Bahwa dalam bersuara
dan mensuarakan
Ada yang tidak pernah memaksa,
Ada juga yang senantiasa.

Lalu mengapa tidak terima saja
Bahwa hanya sedikit berbeda cara mereka dalam berbahasa?

Friday, September 23, 2016

This picture wasn't intended to portray any particular state of mine right now because fortunately I am not, and swearing to myself to not again.

Take this as a reminder for us, as human being who has feeling, thoughts, and everything goes around inside -- to never ever bring ourselves to a point where we never ever wanted to; just for the sake of our ego. 

Swallow your pride and let your inner voice speaks
Let them know their worth 
Let them know what has always been,
instead of what you think is going to be

For what the future will brings us into,
We will never know
All I know is nothing wrong about being honest.